They don’t know if its a foul play or not… God I hope it was simple and painless. She was still a little girl :( 

My 16 year old cousin was found dead this morning…

I’m crumbling again.

Thinks Brandon will come back eventually but the other part of me thinks he really is “happy”. I found my engagement ring still in his car this morning and when I asked him why he still had it he barely gave me an I don’t know. 

I’m going to take Shia to the doctor because he has a pretty bad rash. To my misfortune Brandon is coming along to. After we get back from the doctors I’m going to drop off an application for a job and talk to the manager. THEN I’ll make/edit the video I talked about yesterday. Send me asks about what you would like me to talk about other then what happened/custody :)

Hey guys I’m seriously considering make a video explaining everything that happened and about custody. Would you guys like a video like that?

I’m actually doing great today. Brandon finally gave me closure which I’ve been begging for it. I truly believe that’s all I needed.

I’ll reply to my messages when I get on the computer.

I tried to call Brandon to let him know he can see Shia today but he didn’t answer. Then I see he made a Facebook and has added his ex (the chick I messaged on Facebook awhile back) then a status right around the time I called saying “Finally going to bed”. I can’t stand him right now so I turned off my phone put it in my lock box and pushed the box as far as I could underneath the bed.

I can’t reply on my iPod privately but I’m ok and Shia is snuggled up to me.

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I came home to Brandon’s car being loaded and him telling me he is ready to move on. Never have I ever been this heart broken.